today......

I don't have any set surgery date yet but I know I will within the month. It's the right decision, I know now. I'm afraid to look at my x-rays again. They are truly scary so I won't put them on my blog yet! The curves are 60 thoracic & 60 lumbar, with a thoracolumbar curve of 95. I'm really proud of facing my fears & going into the Big Apple to be checked by a specialist. And he says he can fix me, somehow..... I could only hold the tears back so long & then....that was that. My husband had to ask the questions. I guess the last few years I've been worried since the Dr. I went to in NJ. told me I should have had an operation when I was 15-end of story, goodbye. And I cried then too when I got out the door.. I did'nt like him anyway. He was ugly & did'nt have good posture....goodbye too!!!
Can ya imagine how many people in NYC have scoliosis??? I honestly never thought there was so many people that had it until I read the sciolosis forum. Wow! I was amazed. I learned a bundle in a couple days. Is'nt the internet just great?! People on the forum were talking about the pain involved, the drugs to kill the pain & their incisions.....and the hardware used to straighten them out. Did they have front or back surgery or both??? I think I absorbed too much to soon. I needed to rest. My back hurt.
Then I wonder how my 3 men are going to handle this? I'm sure they will do fine. They will have to count me out of kickball & baseball this summer if I'm operated on. I'll be the cheerleader...that's not so bad............